Am an Indian girl and this is my story. It could very easily be the most cherishing story of my life and it didn't turn out that ways. I have notnor I can evertell it to anyone. I was working in a big company in Delhi at that time. He was my colleaguein different department. From the very beginning I loved his lookshis simplicity and his aura.
We discussed office matters initiallythen general thingsthen went to lunchplanned a movie and suddenly we were dating. He proposed me for marriage on one of our evening chats. It was wonderful to get this straight. My familyanywayswas looking for a match. We kissed on a park bench for 15 minuteslast 5 odd minutes he fondled my boobs. It was my first kissI have never been even touched before. Since I studied in girls school and college it was my first on every count.
Am extremely fair complexioned and his hard press would leave red marks on my body. I went to his roomhe lived alone there. We cooked together. He then told me that he has a desire to see my boobs and that he loved so much the feel of it. Then he took off the topcuddled mecaress and suckle them for long. He blindfolded meI felt a soft and hardwarm touch on my breast.
He took my hand there and guided me to do up-down motion. I didn't know what exactly is going on but liked the sensations in my body. It was unimaginable hormonal rush. He ejaculated on my breast .I didn't know what was that starchy liquid.
I was madly in love. We then went out. He asked me what all do I know about sex.
I told him that my knowledge is limitedonly one of my friend who got married told me that how do girls become pregnant after marriage.
He then told me what was that liquid ( semen ) that came out from his dick. He saidthis is the most precious thing a women can have and for rest of days ( to not get pregnant)it is meant to be consumed by females directly.
He told me it's health benefitsnatural vitamins and happy hormones that it generates. Next dayat his roomI was totally naked doing fellatio. His taste was like a disgusting medicineI swallowed it whole as he insisted.
He showed me videos on doing it the right way. I thought its a very important thing to learnall women know it and I must catch up fast. He won my trust by not asking for intercourse. He took me to parlorgot full - body waxingwore short skirt and a skimpy tops for first time. I switched my jobeven then We would meet everydaytwice a week in his roomonce a week movieonce in a parktwice coffee or lunch and once in week some creative tours. He didn't talk to my family as I asked him to do saying that he has the responsibility of his sister's marriage.
His father had passed away few years back. I loved him so much that could never say no. It didn't ever crossed my mind that he can do anything wrong. It went to such an extent that I would sit with him on bikehe would place his bag in front and I will then i will hold his organ covering the sides with my Chunni. I would satisfy him with movement of just one finger on the right nerve.
We got so used to it that we can pull it off on a moving bike in middle of Delhi's traffic. Movie halls and public parks were easy ones. At timeshe would do facial with his cum and smear it all over my face with a cream so that it doesn't become sticky. He told me it will make my skin healthy and glowing. We will come back to his roomsatisfy his erection one more time before changing my dress to head back home.
I had a full wardrobe of western and party wears at his room.
He showed me videos of Anal sex. Told me that it is little painful to do it but he will bear that pain for me. His cum will nourish my butts and put they will be perfectly toned and shaped up for short dresses. He also told me that all models get this done. It's the secret that women or men don't generally share. I cried out in pain as he entered me. He had a lubegel and a sex toy to make it easier on me. I got him agreed that I won't suck after anal penetration. I pushed him for proper intercourse but he denied.
Told me it's for marriage. All that he wants me to look even more beautiful now. All Saturday's and Sundays I would be with him citing work pressure at home. 2 years passed like thisI sensed something is wrong. His sister was getting marriedI was so happy for that. He didn't invite me to his home town. Made excusesremained silent on our marriage. The frequency of our dates in his room were once a fortnight now. Howsoever I may resolve to not do it I would end up with sucking him dry.
His kisshis embrace and what I called ' My Joystick ' was my lifeline. I told him loud and clear that I will not marry anyone except youneither will allow you to marry anyone else.
3 years passed byhe bought a cara flat but kept postponing for marriage saying it will spoil the good time. I wanted to do a proper intercourse but he denied it Every time. We stopped talking to each other over differences on marriage. One day he offered to drop me to home. Just before I was getting outhe held my hand and Drew me close.
I just melted. He licked me hard and I gave him a passionate blowjob. It was such an intense moment that we didn't care an iota on ' what if ' !
At times I didn't believe it's me. I used to be a shydiffident kind of girl who is doing all hardcore things. I allowed it all in the name of my love for him.
My family had many marriage proposal in between. My relatives kept on insisting on itsome really good options came.For me it was never an option The same routine continued for another 6 months. I went to another city on tour for 2 weeks.
When I came back I asked him to meet.
His response was very cold. He texted me in night that he got engaged to some other girl and i shall forget him. I didn't believe himwent to his office next dayhe told me the same thing and said that its all over between us. He continued his verbal assault on me. Thoroughly insulting and demeaning me. Called me a bitch who has no self - respect and despite so much of rebuttal refuses to lick it's owner.
He said that he can still offer me his Cum once a month after his marriage if am so much keen to have it. Marriagein any caseis not possible. I broke down. I got numb. It all looked dizzying horrid. I can't believe him as I moved out of his sight. It must be his prankI thought. I can't be mad after such a disrespectful guy.
It wasn't himI cried out loud. I cried cried and cried for the entire night.
I knew what am going to do. Will go his home in morningwill suck him and then things will be normal. I reached there at 7 am. He came out and said what do you want ?
I held himtrying to kiss himthrusting my breast on his chest. He shoved me away as I touched his crotch. Pulled meshowed the pics of his engagement and closed the door pushing me out. I have very faint memory what happened afterwardshow I came back home.
On that day I ate rat poisonvomited itcried non stop.
Had it not been for my parents and my big brotherI wouldn't be here writing this. For gullible girls like meI have few thoughts to share , Never give yourself up fully to your man. Say noyou will be valued. Watch the sexual behavior of you guyif he is too much into itasking for unnatural thingsthen he may not be the right one. Be strictput conditions.
Love is okbut for getting him to do what you wantyou need to be tactful. If he insults youput a full stop there. Don't pursue that relationship. Get yourself educated on sex. No one shall be able to fool you with irrational stories. Finallyno relationship is absolute. It's all conditional. If we want it to be with our conditions we need to keep a tab on our emotional outlets.
I got married 2 years after him. Am so emotionally torn that when my husband asks me for fellatio or Anal sexI decline. Joy of yesteryear is a pain for today. I hope pouring my heart out here will lighten my burden. Edit - I did Meet his wife and told her what he did ( not in this much detail ). I guesshe had already anticipated it and had taken her into conference. She told me that she is aware of the physical part but he isn't a Cheat. Whatever happened happen with my consent and also instigation.
Even she has a past and she has started a new life with him. She suggested me to get away from this and start anew. Edit - I have been graphic and deive because I have learned that by detailing it once somewhere and sharing the minute things will help me in catharsis .or else it keeps on coming back to me.
Edit - I want to create a distance from my past and by not telling it anywhere I will keep it burning in my heart. Even the porn stories are based on realities somewhere. What we don't see is where it eventually leads to !!